another night, sitting here alone
another fight, hittin the tones
to fit the mood i'm in
swallowin this vitamin
it should be blue to match my mood
maybe they could try again
i'm lexi pro now,
i need meds to throw down on my end
it's like how'd i get to this point
i used to ride my bike and tie my shoes, like other boys
but now i'm sad all the time and i don't know why
i have so much in front of me, but these tears make my blind
am i just drowning for a purpose
or is my purpose just to drown
with no one around
and anyone who understands is in the same ground
we should catch eachother's breath, and pass it back down
is anyone who understands in the same town
we should catch eachother's breath, and pass it back down
let's go now
and look for something better, to take this pain away
wash the painted face today, go to bed without layin awake


i don't wanna be like this,
others hear trumpets,
i hear violins
i know it's all music, but i'd rather be like them
and live a life without questions, one more i might spin
out of control,
takin medication just to be normal
by definition,
but i'm about to bury the dictionary
the only thing to keep me warm when i'm weary
from this affliction



i see the sun peakin through the blinds,
hope is on the way now
i love horizons,
time to kneel and pray now
God'll show the Way now, He's paved it
I'm not worried bout my soul, He's already saved it
but life is throwin curve balls,
time to hit the line drives
steal a couple bases, with ethics in my hind sights
i don't doubt i'm gonna make it,
but the pressure in the kettle got my screaming like i'm great at it
holdin on, hopin that the ride goes on,
but the dips get easier
and i can figure out what's wrong with me
if anything, just make it evener
if not, i'll be okay,
i got these meds at least, but it's a beast i'll never tame
and that's okay, cuz every day I'll say His name
Jesus,
I may be scared to death, but He is fearless
I wish I didn't know what fear is, but then I probably wouldn't trust Him
I'll take the promises of Hope, and make my life about Just Him